February 08th, 2019

​Presenting Workshop FEAR

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So i'm booked in and on the official page to present at this year NZ SpiritFEST....
I have presented so many workshops at so many events that I've lost track...
I've facilitating the opening ceremony at one of NZ's biggest wellness gatherings as well as many festivals in the north island and shit-loads of smaller groups, conferences and healing Huis and Wananga
yet once again i find myself giddy with nerves and feeling FEAR!
"Why" i ask myself... "i know my shit...im good at this..."
Then i stopped and i checked in ....
yes, i have never been to this venue so there is natural organisational things i need to factor in, like how far do i have to carry my gear, what plants grow in the area that i can focus on etc.
yes, its a new festival, one i have not attended so there's a natural querying about the type of people attending and if i will find them approachable and receptive to my teachings....but i've been in some less than loving environments and still have had people enjoy and learn and love what i do...
so maybe......maybe.....this isn't fear..
​maybe its just nervousness.....
maybe...maybe this isn't nervousness either???
Actually maybe, under the logistical figuring out.... it is actually a wee bit of excitement...abit of unknown adventure!!
I lost my sense of adventure for a few years..
i knew my love of all things that can be explored was deep, deep, deeeeepp down there inside me still...but it was swamped under distress, illness, family needs, dysfunction and a need to control and have routine and structure in order to keep my boat afloat.
So here i am, today. 
I've built an ark..this fucker is not going to sink... I am not going to sink
So now i can let out my free spirited heart and let her roam and delve and go exploring again
I can wing this shit, I always do...I know what I do inside out and the rest well...it will come as we get to it!!
I always come through no matter what obstacles I come across...if ya cant go over - you go under..or around or you sidestep or fly or tunnel or out maneuver...somehow there is a way to keep moving....
and so I realize my fear is not fear at all..
Its a bit of adrenaline to pump me up for the inevitable stretching that comes from putting myself into an unknown situation...its my body prepping for the stretching and growth that it is about to explore,  and it is the softening of my edges in order for them to expand into a bigger version of myself.
SO.... spiritFEST I greet you and lets get this party started!!!

if you attend my workshop at SpiritFEST 2019 you are automatically in the draw for a balm package and you can also purchase my products at special festival prices.

SpiritFEST have some awesome ticket deals below
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Encourage everyone that you know to grab their tickets as soon as possible & if they get 3 friends to come they will get 100% of their ticket money back! Amazing!
and if you don't have 3 friends then get yourself a ticket and come and make some new ones!!
Here is your discount code. We invite you to share our special 10% off discount code which your friends can enter when buying their tickets.
Discount Code: TENOFFSPIRIT

if you don't know about SpiritFEST here is the official blurb
 It's an event that celebrates global community, world music and well-being, from March 1-3rd in Waimauku, Auckland. Start 2019 conscious, connected and focused on achieving your wellness goals. The diverse programming of over 60 workshops and beautiful setting makes this a transformation festival like none other. It is truly an unforgettable experience of wellness, local and international culture and mesmerizing nature. Join me there! http://bit.ly/XavierRuddNZSpiritFestival